Internal Landscape

I’m wondering around with my head in the clouds, eyes stuck into the ground, not to stumble, I’m afraid to look them in the eye, scared they will find the hidden treasure and take it. Locked in silence I’m looking for words they expect me to say, they want me to tell them the truth, but I cannot say it, I want to show it!

I did not expect… again... that coming back to life can be so challenging, that I have to feel it all to breathe deeply, so I withdraw… and engage, rejoice and grieve, laugh and cry, fall down and rise. I keep going with this storm inside me and it makes me happy and scares me at once, it can sometimes be painful, the whole life churning inside me and it’s such a small heart. Oh life!