The Memories

Most people are reminded of certain emotions when they think of the sea.

The sea brings me nostalgic memories as my home town is located by the sea. The sea made me excited with her waves of sparkling water. However, the fact is that I become a coward when I go in to the water. I cannot even swim, and the only action that I can do is to struggle to breathe and flounder in the water.

I am the same inside a ship, which is the greatest invention of mankind; I merely wait for my great motion– seasickness – to go away, with my eyes closed, once it starts on the ship.

Nonetheless, I loved the sea. In time, my fear vanished, and I missed the beautiful sea again.

I missed the sea even more when I looked out of the window of my room, laying down on my bed. By then, I was swept away by an impulse to go to sea right now, while imagining the movement of shining water. I was overwhelmed by great memories and the atmosphere of the seaside; then, suddenly I realised the reality. I was still in my room, and the only thing I see now is not the sea but the white ceiling.

In fact, nothing was wrong, but the moment was sorrowful to me. I was merely thinking of a nostalgic memory, but why does this make my heart hurt?

It abruptly reminded me of the moment of seasickness; it comes but disappears once I get out of ocean. The sickness that will be restarting once I go on the water is self-centred nausea.

I am now sailing in a sea of memories. I have begun to get lost in memories, and it is not over yet.

If I could forcibly stop this memory, this nausea might also disappear. However, I cannot stop being reminded of the memories. Therefore, all I can do is to wait until this huge wave of memories becomes gentle and slowly fades away.